September Song
Well, here I go again with excuses on why I take so long to update this thingy... Met new friends from the jazz course this week... some Christian Union thing on tonight as well... Went to the heart of London 3 times already... Gosh, I have to stop spending so much money... The deal with the cooking and music lessons is working out pretty well too :P Free food!!! yay!! haha... Of course not everyday lol... Been jamming almost every other day... and "partying" or "socialising" if I didn't jam... really tired and I have a class tomorrow so that's it in a nutshell... if you wanna know more talk to me on msn!!! lol...Dead...
Don't Worry 'Bout Me
So the question on everyone's mind is... how am I getting on with uni? well... for starter's... it isn't as tough as I thought it would be...I arrived on Thursday... Both my Dad and sis helping me to lug around all the heavy suitcases and all... I was quite disoriented at 1st... but... the student helpers and staff were very friendly and made us all feel welcome... :)The 1st person I met was Jo... some Nigerian girl who showed me around the campus... Well, my dad and sis were waiting for me back in my room so I couldn't see everything... So after they left, I went on the "official" tour of the school campus...Now the funny thing is... I go for this tour of the school campus and I bump into this Indian guy called Don and low and behold... where does he come from? None other than Singapore... Studying Philosophy and Writing... So I get to know him... then we have lunch over at the Union Bar... Met one Indian girl, Sonal and another Mauritian Suraya... They weren't 1st year students... Just helping people get orientated... Zac, a Malaysian whom I met earlier and Jo also joined us... After lunch we went grocery shopping at... bought some stuff...The next day, Friday, I went to the Union bar and had breakfast with Don, Sonal, Suraya and Upma and Barbara... then we had talks the whole day... kinda boring but important... ghehe... also met Arlene from Puerto Rico and Fernando from Spain... Had lunch with this Korean guy, Lee and then Don, Upma, Arlene, Marian and 2 other gals came to join us... and Sonal, Suraya, Jo and Barbara were looking over to our corner wondering why on earth our group was getting so big... wahahahaha!!!There was a barbeque at night... and I met a few more people... Lots of Malaysians... Nigel, Kelly and Crystal... and Phoebe from Hongkong... had a walk around the campus with Crystal and Pheobe after dinner... doing stupid things like chasing rabbits... lol...Anyway, Saturday was the tour of London... Met another Mauritian, Chaya, 2 Indians, Ali and I forgot his name :P, 2 Malaysians, Suzanne and Eileen and 2 gals from Denmark and Finland who's names I've forgotten :pAfter the tour, a few of us went to get groceries... met another Indian gal too who had just arrived... her name starts with p.... ahhhhh... I can't remember everyone!! Oh yea!!! there was this guy who was listening to jazz in his room... I wanted to find out who he was but his room door was closed... So a few minutes later there was like a fire alarm... and then I met the guy and he's doing the same course as me!! how cool is that!! and he's on the same floor as I am.. ghehehe...I can't remember all that happened during the past few days cause it's been soooo hectic... haha... All I know is... there are 3 Malaysian gals doing music... that guy Alex, doing the same course as me... and that I made a deal with a few people that if they cook for me or teach me how to cook, I give them free music lessons... so far it's working out alright :)Today was cool!!! I went to Bright and Miriam's Church and all the people down there were really really really really really really really niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! I stayed to fellowship with them until 6pm and just got back! haha!!! We talked about everything under the sun... It was a really good time!! :) Anyway, I officially start school tomorrow so I will end this blog entry cos I'm kinda tired...Later ;)
Just One Of Those Things
WWJD... What Would Jesus Do... Hits that nail right on the head... Thanx for the support Min, Roy and Bryan... I've been forgetting that a long time... 'Nuff Said... Just short entry to remind myself that God is in control of everything and I need to trust Him...Out...
Why Can't I?
So what problem do I have now? You might be asking... I'm sure by now you're sick and tired of hearing me whine about my life's experiences... if you do not wish to read the rest of this blog entry... you don't have to... this is just a place for me to escape... ok... maybe the word vent is more apt...Straight to the points I want to write about... 1st... from previous blog entries... as you might have already read... people being "real" in church.... 2nd... and a new topic which goes in conjunction with this... cliche as it might seem... but excuse me for being melodramatic... being misunderstood by people... mainly by my parents... sure you might shake your head and sigh thinking... here he goes again... selfish old me... is it too much to ask if I just want someone to listen? =D nothing on you of course... sorry to be rude and in your face...Background information for you in case you're wondering what in the world I'm going on about... Actually it's a whole build up of things... 2 months ago when I came back to the UK for my studies... I had loads of doubts and questions... and I'd be lying to you if I said I didn't have them now... questions like... food, accommodation, university life... but the main ones were finding a church... now to me... that means a church where I feel welcome... If I have to spell it out for you it means... where I can fit in and where the youth doesn't talk amongst themselves in they're cliques... which is what happened when I was previously in the UK before I went to national service...Coming back... I saw it as something I had to bear with till I went to go find another church... Yes there were thoughts about me being selfish and all... about the whole consumer church thing... where one says what can I GET out of a church... instead of what can I DO for a church... and believe me... I HAVE thought about it... Well, tying the parents thing in now....What is it with parents that they have to take control of a certain area of your life if they think you're not doing anything about it... ok... so maybe it's my fault for not telling them that I didn't wanna join some other church in London... Cos we've only been there like once or twice when our family's regular church wasn't in session... So listen... they hook me up with some guy I totally don't know... say things which imply that I WILL be going to that church... and get invited to cell group and all... now for all they're good intentions... and their "strong encouragement"... I keep sensing a feeling to go to the other church... and yes... I HAVE thought about whether it is God's will... or whether it is my own will getting the better of me... well... may be my fault for not vocalising the issue to my parents...So why don't you? you ask... for one... my mum likes to talk AT you... instead of to or with you... which doesn't really leave much breathing space for me or anyone if you think about it... My dad... listens... but has his own ideas... it's not necessarily an "in one ear out the other" sortta thing... but more like an "in two ears, out the mouth in a different version from the original"... now don't get me wrong... I love my parents... I just wish they would listen PROPERLY sometimes...Coming back to church... I've been to EEC... the church where my parents "decided" for me to go... somehow it lacks warmth... excuse me if I'm wrong... and don't think for one moment that I'm not battering myself over my attitude towards newcomers when I was back in Singapore... cos I feel terrible now... anyway... this other church... I've been praying in my heart for God to give me some sortta sign... I didn't want to talk to anyone about it... or anything cos I didn't wanna push for my own agenda... I'm just as confused as you are now... anyway... Jonathan Aston's wife came up to me today... and I didn't even ask her about anything... She asked me if I knew of the church in Enfield... the place where I'm staying during term time... and I think you can guess the rest of the story....What I'm trying to figure out is... Is this all coincidence... God's signs... or just my imagination running wild again... part of growing up involves making your own decisions... I also know it means... dealing with the consequences... Right now I'm fine with dealing with the consequences... I'm fine with that... I just wish I'd be given a PROPER chance to make my own decisions... and yea... I'm not saying I'm right or wrong...I'm merely venting....
