I Got It Bad (And That Ain't Good)

Ok so maybe I've been neglecting this for a while... One minute your life is fine, the next minute you're coasting downhill dreading that inevitable crash... what kills me is the anticipation... not the actual impact but the fear of the unknown...

Rollercoaster weeks... Had a tussle with a few band mates on Monday... i.e. different opinions, rude remarks, etc... today was a bit better... anyway... getting another assignment tomorrow... busy busy busy... teaching, getting paid... good and bad... going out meeting new people... and you know how it's like accomodating them in your life... meeting old friends... working with a few people... getting asked too many requests... studying, not studying... relationship problems... church visions... fasting... overwhelmed... see what I mean, I can't even construct cohesive sentences... I need to pray... or at least try to...

Lord I need to know that you are real
Lord help me through this period
Lord I need rest
Lord I can't keep sinning like this
Lord thank you for the blessings
Lord take away these feelings
Lord I want to do your will, my flesh is so weak, help
Lord meet me tonight in my dreams
Lord help me soon before I die from the inside out